Sometimes it is astonishing me how much we are guided by our internal belief patterns which we are often not even aware of. Growing up in a very abusive and not supportive environment I am full of these destructive belief patterns. Through the years I developed some techniques to check the status of my beliefs and sometimes it is really scary to which beliefs which I am discovering I have to agree to. Here is one example I want to share of one belief and how I was able to delete it and change my actual behavior within minutes.
One day I was going for a hike together with my husband and a friend. Unforeseeable they decided to change the route and go for a walk right next to the ocean. But there was no road or street, we had to climb over the stones, as you can see on the picture above. Immediately I felt uncomfortable. The two guys were much faster than me and I started to fall behind. Additionally the tide was rising and I started to generate fearful thoughts that the tide would catch us and we won’t be able to make our way back. Falling back further, all alone with my fearful thoughts getting worse and worse I decided to try to find out where these thoughts were coming from.
While doing so I got into these negative thoughts more and more. It was like a downward spiral pulling me deeper and deeper into the darkness of my own thoughts. At one point I had to stop and breathe in and out slowly not to start crying. I had thoughts like this:
“Why are they not helping me. Nobody takes care of me. They leave me behind and give a shit about me and how I am.
Me
I will get hurt. I will break my ancle. I will get stuck between the stones. I will never get back safe.
I am so insecure. I am afraid to get hurt. I will get hurt badly.”
Going through all these thoughts I tried to narrow it down to the basis of my fear. And going deeper and deeper at one moment I got the feeling I got to the base of it.
I discovered a substantial fear:
FEAR OF PAIN
the fear of feeling pain, the fear of getting hurt
This fear is beside me all the time, accompanying all my moves and decisions. I was shocked of the clear “YES” when confronting myself with this belief pattern as it went really really deep. Reflecting all the abuse from my earliest childhood, brutality experienced by myself but also all the aggressive energy that was surrounding me from my first days in this life, explains this constant fear of getting hurt, fearing the pain that comes with it, physically and emotionally.
After realizing the source now I was ready and decided to delete this belief pattern.
During my life I developed a technique which is inspired by Theta Healing techniques and the words I use got paraphrased by Christie Marie Sheldon, a spiritual teacher I got to know in 2018, when I watched videos and courses published online. Christie’s technique is very straight forward and safes much time. It is kind of a shortcut compared to the traditional Theta Healing Techniques, but it works nevertheless.
- You define the belief pattern you want to get rid of because it does not serve you any more.
- You connect with the light above you and the earth below you.
- Then you concentrate all the energy in your heart until you are able to expand the heart as far as possible.
- This gets you in the right state to be able to reprogram yourself using a phase like this, in my case here “the fear of pain”:
“I delete, destroy, destory and decrate the fear of pain in my whole being; though all dimensions, time, space and reality.”
In that state I often get more information’s and I keep adapting the wording that needs to be used in the flow of the process. In this case it kept flowing very intensely and went somehow like this:
“I delete, destroy, destory and decreate the fear of pain though all my genetics, all my genetic memories, from the atomic level, through the elemental level, to the cellular level, through all astral, emotional and spiritual dimensions, from infinity to eternity, now.
So be it.”
I went on repeating sentences like that all over again, feeling blocks of stuff stumbling around me, getting lighter and lighter until an inner peace started to fill me up and I started realizing that the fear of pain was gone. At that time I started smiling and my steps got more self confident. I started creating new belief patterns like these:
“I enjoy life.
I enjoy to move. I am confident in my body.
I am safe.
I am confident to jump and run.”
At that time I started laughing and started to jump from stone to stone instead of anxiously daring to take the next step. It started to be fun and I started to enjoy it. In the meantime we were on the way back and unbelievable I was now faster than the guys. I had so much fun jumping, being so confident with each step, that I left them behind. Some of the stones moved as they were not stable, but that started to be the most fun for me, because I had to balance and it was fun, like racing a roller coaster.
When we reached the starting point I looked back and I could not believe the difference inside my self, how I started the hike and which condition I ended it. It was a change of 180 degrees, from one opposite to the other, from the dark to the light in just a little more than an hour.
When I realize a destructive belief pattern,
– within myself: “I delete it!”
– within another person I keep saying: “Just delete it!”
I know it works.